1. Islam

2. Son

3. Brother

4. Husband

5. Scientist

6. Malaysian

7. Gamer

8. Photographer


10. Film Lover

11. Music Lover

12. Book Lover

13. Cook

Theres this joke i like that goes:

"Nobody’s an atheist 10 seconds before an orgasm"

Hahaha funny and true

My friend at work who is a self professed atheist was moaning “oh gawd!” A lot earlier this week. He was swamped with work and he was feeling it. Soon the irony caught up with him and he said “At times like these i wish i had a God. Then I’d have some one to blame or someone to turn to at times like these”.

That was funny to me. I’m pretty much the only religious one (in terms of having faith in a religion) in the office. But ive never felt the need to blame God for anything. And i wonder if thats what he thinks ppl who have religion do and think.

Then there was a discussion on how people invented religion because they needed something to project to and believe in to keep them safe back in the days. Nothing i haven’t heard before to be honest.

Im not one to preach anything at all to anyone. But its sad to me that people think of religion like that. It’s sad how it’s something inherently good but because of how humans have used it.. It now has a bad rep and anyone religious now is seen as a relic from a forgotten age.

London is a pretty godless place imo. Which is ironic considering how many grand churches and cathedrals there are here and the national anthem featuring “God save the Queen”. You dont feel anything spiritual anywhere at all. A lot of ppl here claim science as the answer to everything and for many that means that religion is no longer relevant. Thats fine too, if you really feel that way. Life is different for everyone and sometimes religion doesnt suit everyone’s way of or path through life.

What i can’t stand is people who look down on ppl who do believe in religion. Dont they realise that by actively criticising religious people they are just as bad as the fanatics they mock.


It seems like my brain is most active when i’m either in the shower or on the pot. Ill remember things, wonder things. Things that i should write about in this blog.. Things that would make for great conversations.

But the second i open this page.. Everything good clears away like a classroom when the end of school bell rings. All that’s left are anxieties.. Worries. Stuff that everyone else has and would hate the read about further.

So no.. No writing about anxieties today. Time for better things.

As one grows up, one tries and exposes oneself to different things all the time. Eventually sticking to things that one finds most pleasurable or rewarding and leaving the rest behind.

At 30 years old, im quite happy with what these things are to me. Namely (in no particular order):

1. Food - would like to learn to cook simple stuff too
2. Videogames - have a go at simulation programs locally as a hobby or career opportunity 
3. Movies  - Netflix and beyond 
4. Book/comics - too many too read
5. Jogging - eventually 21km someday ?
6. Travel (mahal dowh) / Photography (mainly macro)
7. Music (also singing n ukulele)
8. Islam - I need the calmness
9. Science - I need the confidence

This list excludes the obvious human relationships of course such as friends, family and etc.

So there it is. I am the 9 things in that list. My question is how does one have time to do it all ? I dont have time to do these things very much and im still not married. For now, everything interesting to do with anything in that list gets saved here for future reference. That’s handy but will i really have time if im married with kids ? 

Shit this just turned into an anxiety post.

My guess is that if and when that happens ..that list of 9 will be changed extensively to the names of little people. And those 9 things are just things that i can introduce to them in the hope that its something that we can do together for fun growing up (me included).

Allahualam bisawwab

P.s. no anxiety post next time !